My world is a small one and I love it that way. I write my books with pen and paper and still keep real photo albums. I'm not saying that's the only reason people use those sites, but there is certainly a lot of posturing that goes on on them, and that's really not me. I'm not on FB, Instagram, Twitter, any of that stuff, only Quora: I don't seek attention, I don't like it. On rare occasions, I get dressed up and go out to meet a friend or whatever. Being invisible suits me down to the ground. I work from home and don't see many people, and going into busy places makes me anxious. When I am normal Dawn, I don't turn heads, I am invisible. It's not that I don't like getting dressed up, I just utterly resent how differently I am treated. The second picture is my normal day-to-day look. Before I rant, let me say, the top picture I took two weeks ago and sent to my boyfriend precisely because it is extremely rare for me to get 'dressed up'. And not trying to sound snobby or pretentious, just wanted to answer the question honestly and compare treatment!" Makeup makes me stand out, and sometimes it's nice to just blend in and focus on the interior and not the exterior. These last 3 months I've only worn makeup once and it's been amazing. (Granted I wouldn't have answered, he was dull and egotistical, couldn't keep a conversation going about anything other than lifting.) I had to wear a full face of “performance makeup” every day for 8 months, and let me tell you, it's slightly exhausting. Rich men and athletes have taken me out on very luxurious dates, whereas I once did a personal experiment and met up with someone from a dating app bare-faced, and never got a callback. People offer me jobs more and try to recruit me to do marketing. When I have a full face of makeup on I can walk straight to the front of any VIP line at a night club and get in (even before I was 21.) I get significantly hit on more, even offered a lot of money in exchange for my “time”, and that has never happened without makeup. Random women have tried to pick fights with me because their husband was looking at me. Girls have walked their boyfriends out of my work because of my looks. I've had boys tell me that other boys wouldn't date me in school because they're too afraid, that I'm “too cool”. I've had people tell me that before they got to know me they thought I’d be stuck up. As some of my best friends have told me, I come across as “intimidating” and “mean”. But when people meet me when I'm dolled up, it's a night-and-day difference. Rarely do I receive compliments on my looks or get hit on. Other women approach me for conversation if I'm at the bar, I exchange casual smiles while passing someone in the aisle grocery shopping, all just typical daily scenarios with the average human being. "When people meet me and I'm bare-faced, I'm treated like just another person.
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